Friday, September 21, 2012

it IS a big deal...


I realized something this week. I have fallen in love with the South.

I was on a ride earlier and smelled honeysuckle. Amazed, I looked around ( I was not zooming along... I am not in very good shape and the country farm roads that surround me are hilly) and sure enough, there were just a few blooms on a nearby vine. My heart smiled. I started thinking about everything in the South I enjoy and I realized I would be sad to leave it.

My first and true love will always be the wilderness mountains and deserts of the West. Nothing can replace their grandeur and beauty and the way I feel when I am there. But I have grown to love the more subtle and complicated beauty of the South. I read an article in Southern Living (yes... I KNOW!..I actually subscribed to a southern women's magazine. They have FABULOUS recipes and southern gardening knowledge among other fun stuff) about a Southerner who had recently returned, trying to explain to her NYC friends why and how she loves the South. In her words:

"... the South, like anything worth knowing, is complicated. And complexity married to beauty never bores."

also "...the Southerness-otherness-one finds only in Dixie, a land of stark contradiction, where grace and guilt sit shoulder to shoulder, where the past isn't the past, and redemption is ever an offer."

Her words resonated with me and I realized that I had grown to love it here...grace and guilt sitting shoulder to shoulder. When I shared all this to Jason he was surprised and said, "..........wow...........that is a BIG deal........"

I found this on my walk with Molly this morning. I first thought I should take a picture where you can't see my incredibly messy kitchen, but then changed my mind. Life is real, right? One more thing. My entire kitchen smells like honeysuckle now and it make me happy. But if you look close you will see leaves that have been ravaged by some bug. Complex beauty, not perfect or serene, but beautiful all the same.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Appomattox Court House

On Labor day we drove up to Appomattox, Virginia to see where General Robert E. Lee surrendered to General Ulysses S. Grant to begin the ending of the Civil War. (Did you know the war didn't official end when this surrender happened? I didn't. There were other southern armies that still had to stop fighting and surrender. The Civil War offically ended right outside of Raleigh, in our great state of NC.) Jason and I enjoyed it much more then the kids did. But it got us out of the house on a rainy day together as a family.

One of the last battlefields of the Civil War. It still feels solemn to me. I loved the open spaces. Being able to visit really made the Civil War more understandable to me. There is still a lot I need to learn.

 This is a replica of the McLean family home where General Lee surrendered to Grant. The original house is gone but they have the exact plans and were able to rebuild it. All the other buildings are original. We were a little disappointed to see that it needed some paint and roof work.  It is much more spacious then other houses of the period I have seen. It has beautiful textiles, carpets and curtains, etc.

Jason filled me in on the McLeans. I can't remember the father's first name. But they originally lived in Manassas, VA where the very first battle of the Civil War was fought. During the Battle of Bull Run their house had a cannon ball shot through the dining room. So the McLeans moved to a more rural, safer quieter town and the war again came right to their doorstep, surrender treaty signed in their living room.
I think that is super interesting.

 
 Luke being a soldier. This is where the very last cannon shots were fired from Union troops.
 Sophie was the only one brave enough to sit next to the grouchy interpreter. He was not much help. Good thing Jason has read a lot about the Civil War and could teach us.


 This cemetery was created in the early 1900's by a local women's group. It has 18 graves of Confederate soldiers and one Union soldier added later. I was disturbed by the confederate flag flying on these graves. This is federal land, a federal park. We had passed lots of windows and stores with it flying, but I was surprised to see it on government land. Apparently I am not the only one. The Union soldier's grave was decorated with lots of flowers and flags and other trinkets. His was the only one. Grace went and picked a clover flower to put on it. Noah kept asking me what country the other soldiers came from. He knows what our flag looks like and the flag on most of the graves was not familiar to him.

I think there is much to be proud of in the South. I have no issue with Southerns being proud of the good here, but the Confederate flag has come to mean much more then "I love the South". It represents bigotry and violence and hatred. I had to wonder who was responsible to putting up these very new flags, and what was their purpose? There is also a big marble monument honoring the soldiers from the South. I know it was created more then 100 years ago, but it still makes me uncomfortable. Next to it was an enormous old oak tree. It was a much more fitting monument to the lives lost in the war to me. Stately and strong.

 Favorite think I learned in Appomattox: When the Confederate soldiers marched to surrender their weapons the road was lined with Union Soldiers. Lead by a strong and honorable leader, they stood and saluted the Confederate soldiers as they passed. Personal accounts talk of open tears on both sides. I wish we still had that kind of civility and respect for those who differ from us politically in this country today.

 Just to be real. This is the very end of our day. Luke was mad because I wasn't letting him take the picture. Sophie was bored.
Any guesses what kind of bush this is? I have never seen one before. I think it is really cool in a Dr. Suess way.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Beginnings

The kids and Molly all ran ahead of me to the bus stop this morning. I watched their backpacks bounce away down the road and heard them laughing and the dog bark. It was a bittersweet moment and I wished I had a camera to capture it.This is an interesting time for me, full of opposing emotions. No one looked back over their shoulder to me, just charged on ahead with their lives, excited and happy. I slowly walked behind.
I am so grateful my kids are all enjoying school, especially Luke and Noah. Of course I want my children to be happy and successful. It's just that this is the beginning of a whole new season of life for me also and I am not exactly sure how I feel about that. I have to admit, mostly I am excited and happy. But I also know I have left behind afternoon naps snuggled next to one of my soft, chubby babies, singing giggly nursery rhyme games in the car on the way to preschool, slobbery baby kisses and the pure joy of babies laughing.
Having my kids so close together intensifies our lives in many ways. Crazy, loud summer days have now been replaced with a silent house for the first time. It is good. I can hear when I listen to an audiobook as I do laundry, I did errands yesterday in record time. It is hard. I have had little ones to love and look after for years, that has been my life. Now our lives are changing and I am not sure how this is all going to go.
This is a time of faith for me. Stepping into the dark...with faith.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

First Day of School



 First day of Kindergarten and 3rd Grade

All 4 kids were really excited to start school today. On the way this morning Grace told me she was super excited and just a tiny bit nervous. Made me smile. I am super nervous and just a tiny bit excited. I am grateful my kids have such a good school to attend. It is just hard to send them off for the whole day. Especially the boys! They are ready though. I will have such a huge change in my life with everyone being in school. I have all sorts of plans about how I will use my time. I am not sure how it will feel to have such a quiet house all day long. I have to admit I am glad Molly is here still to keep me company!

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Rodent Adventures

Our fun adventure today was supposed to be picking apples. We drove to an orchard just north of our house. It was kind of a bust. We were done in about 15 minutes, the apples are good, not amazing, and Grace summed it up when she said that it was just not as fun as she pictured it. The real adventure came when we pulled in the garage.
We have a chipmunk who lives in the rock wall in our front yard. He/She was in the garage when we got home. The kids thought it was so cute and spent a good 10 minutes trying to lure it out with some carrots. They named it Alvin because it was "mischievous". I left the garage door open and the kids trickled inside after me 1 at a time. 30 minutes later Sophie screamed and said there was a rat in the bathroom.
What?!!!!!
I am such a wimp.
There is no part of me that wanted to discover what was lurking in that bathroom. Then I saw that the door to the garage had been left open AGAIN. Luckily I have Luke. When I asked who wants to help mom be brave and go look in the bathroom he volunteered right away. Once the kids realized it was the chipmunk then they were not scared and wanted to go in right away and love on him. I was a bit freaked out still.  Grace took a broom and scared/shooed him out the door. You know what came next. I just hope they listened and will shut the door. Gross! and freaky and Sophie may never set foot in that bathroom again.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Spontaneous Adventure

 Jason and I are good at playing, just not at planning. We woke up yesterday to a rainy, cool day, no obligations, kids crazy with energy, and decided to go find an adventure. We left the house with one plan, then changed on the way. 2 hours up into the Blue Ridge Mnts  we found ourselves at Tweetsie Railroad, a small, rural amusement park. They have a working steam train from the early 1900's and lots of old school rides.
The weather was cool, low 70's. It is the first time I have been outside in months without sweating and I even got chilly a few times! It was amazing. Super fun day. All the more because it was so organic and just happened. The kids are finally big enough to go on stomach churning rides by themselves. They went again and again, all 4 of them laughing their heads off. Makes me happy remembering it.



I didn't tell the kids to be zombies, just to squeeze into this coffin for a pic. The Smith in them is so apparent sometimes!
Yeah for summer adventures!

Saturday, July 28, 2012

For My Sisters

Have you seen this video yet? Totally makes me laugh, and love our swim team even more. Go USA!

Call Me Maybe

Warning...this song gets embedded into every cell in your brain from listening even once. Seriously good underwater robot among other things totally makes it worth it!